Danny

 "Hope for love, pray for love, wish for love, dream for love

....but don't put your life on hold waiting for love."

Mandy Hale

Dear Lloyd,

Today your brother, Danny, surprised with a phone call saying he was in town and would like to visit.  It was so good to see him and to hear his voice, to spend time with someone who loves you differently, but as much as I love you.

We went to dinner and he, as others have done, told me I should find someone else.  He said it is what you would have wanted for me, and I know that.  But finding someone, love, is easier said than done.  Yes, I do miss the comfort of a love relationship.  I miss male companionship, but as I told Danny, there are not so many 60 year old men that want a 60 year old woman when there are younger women available.  And I am such an odd person.  No need trying to hide it.  Even you, my love, told me not long before you died that Tommy was right, I was strange.  I grin thinking of you always asking me, "What the hell are you doing now?"  To you, my eccentricities were amusing, but not so to those less tolerant.

I miss you love and I am lonely without you.  Even after all this time, not a day goes by when I don't think of you, not just once, but many, many times.  But I am getting by.  No need to worry.  I am fine and moving on.  Your baby brother is getting by, and he is blessed with an ever growing family of grandchildren to keep him young.   Rest in peace, my love. I often smile rather than cry when I think of you now. And yes, I wish, hope, and pray for love in my life, different perhaps than your love, but still love that will light my way as the years darken my senses.  But if it does not appear, my life is not on hold.  I am moving forward. 

Love always, Melissa